Sunday, January 9, 2011 @7:11 PM
This will be the last post ever. Here, my love started and this is whr it shld end. i didnt even noe wad exactly happened but it did.. 4 dec 2010, sat, i was supposed to go kl.his mum said, 2 weeks b4 i went over, he was telling the mum wanna bring me go whr whn i come. budden b4 he went to pick me up at the bus station in kl, he was webcam-ing with his female classmate, mayyi. and, he bought me a bouquet of roses whn he went to pick me up. it was the 1st time receiving real flowers frm him, i was rlly rlly touched as he actually did as promised. and i had no idea wad was coming for me..he was acting rather strange as he said he was moody whn we went hm. the next day, sun, 5 dec , he left me in the hse with his mum, as he said he was gonna service his car to prepare for our melaka trip with his college mates next week, on 9 dec. he didnt wan me to follow him.. so, he left early in the morns but did nt come bk the time he told us. so we waited for an hr and no sign of him. thn we started ringring him but cldnt contact him at all. i started to get panic if sth had happened to him that i started crying. thn he finally called hm to say he was gonna be late but i didnt noe until i managed to reach him. thn, he bought me a stalk of white rose, to represent his guilt for making me worry. i was rlly rlly touched once mre. thn he gradually acted secretive abt his msn chat until melaka trip, but thru-out we were still okay. we went for dinner with his closer clique, at a mall nearby mayyi's hse. thn dunno hw she noe, she stalked us there with her fren, and ask him to bring me just to see her. thn that nite, she msn me and said nice to meet me, i replied "lol" as i didnt noe wad else to reply. thn she complained to him that i wasnt happy to see her..
thn we (me, him and his sister) went to the melaka trip tgt with his college mates. this was the 1st time i see them and they see me in real life. lucky i asked his sis to tag along.. as we felt neglected by him.. he explains as his sis was there to accompany me, so he hang out mre with his frens. he wasnt as worried whn i wasnt feeling well, unlike his fren who was looking for a carpark lot and he immediately volunteered to act as the carpark attendant. thn on 10 dec, the next day, i had a v bad headache as i didnt slp the whole nite. as he left me and his sis alone in the rm while he went to another rm to slp with his frens. he thn cared and say he was gonna go out buy panadol for me.. but aft one hr, it was two of his other female classmates who gave the panadol to me, and it was their own's. and he went breakfast with the other guys.. rlly upset, that i didnt wanna eat lunch. thn actually his frens wanted to cont' walking jonker street out in the sun, they asked if he wanted to go in the aftnn or nite, and he said doesnt matter, he had no preferences. thn he didnt care i was walking under the scorching sun whn i wasnt feeling well, and mayyi ask him, sungho, the sun so hot, yr gf can tahan anot. but he didnt do anything until the rest went into a stall while we stood outside. thn he asked if i wanted to go bk, thn i argued with him saying he was the one who wanted to tag along and jus lemme die on the streets. thn he said if i wanted him to jus go ahead with his frens, thn i ask him to hand over his car keys so i cld take my luggage and leave. thn he drove me and his sis bk kl leaving his frens in melaka. i regretted arguing with him instead of talking it thru nicely with him.. thn lata dat nite, i cried complaining to him we felt neglected but he hugged and apologised. thn sud he say actually he has sth to tell me. thn i ask him to tell and he said, actually he dun hav feelings for me one mth ago.. i was devestated whn i heard it, i cldnt believe my ears. i burst into tears immediately, saying its not true. but he say its true while crying himself. i didnt wanna let go of him at that time. i begged him to give it a shot again, he promised wld try his best.. thn he brought me to a 2nd time car servicing, and i realise the place put closed on sunday.. so i ask him if only the office was closed on sunday thn dat time he came on sun was it the wrkshop was open.. and he say yea..
thn following on the next few days, i cldnt stop thinking abt the matter and keep emo-ing.. thn one day, he went badminton with his college frens, he didnt wan me to tag along and left me in his hse again. feeling afraid, i told his mum and sis abt his intention of breakup. dat day, he didnt come bk the time as promised, he went to his college's hse to play cards and chitchat and he didnt call bk.. thn whn he realise i told his family, and told me off for telling them as he says it btw the 2 of us only.. thn he started not want let me see his msn chats.. thn he told me, with me ard, he cannot do anything or think anything. he need time alone to think abt our r/s.. actually i was supposed to stay in kl for 2wks until 19dec.. this period he still did bring me out for meals.. thn i blocked mayyi on msn as i was so jealous of him always chatting with her, and she realised with other college mate telling her i on9, and she dlted me off fb and msn. she thn complained to him abt it, and said, she shldnt even hav bothered to make frens with me in the 1st place. thn aft this, he wanted to chase me bk s'pore the next day thou promising he will definitely accompany me bk s'pore. but he may b taking the next bus bk kl or stay in s'pore a few days.. dat nite, i had a nitemare dreaming he was chasing me bk s'pore v cruelly.. thn 6+am i woke up cldnt slp anymre, feeling so scared and helpless, i told one of his closer frens abt it. he tot i was jking.. thn his fren came over his hse to comfort me, and ask me to jy see can salvage our r/s if not let go.. i begged him to stick to our original plans to lemme stay until 19dec while he acc me bk and stay until 2jan, thn he reluctantly agreed due to my persistence as i had bought batam trip packages and alot of food vouchers worth over hundreds of sing dollars intended to spend with him. thou, he say he will pay me bk the money, but i didnt care abt the money and jus wanted to spend time with him. whn he found out i told his fren, he was pissed once mre. saying that he didnt want to b frenless. he talked to mayyi abt us argu-ing and that i keep spying on his msn but not abt the intention of a breakup as he didnt wan anybdy to know. i lost all my appetite, and cldnt slp well frm thn on. we agreed to let him have a week aft he comes bk frm s'pore to consider abt our r/s..
he accompanied me bk s'pore. but thru-out this two weeks.. i felt horrible.. he didnt wanna lemme see wad he was chatting on msn, so he wld let me use my lappy in the rm while he goes out to use the pc at living rm most of the times.. thn whn i walk over to him, he wld close the screen or window.. thn he wld always chat with mayyi and a couple of other frens, day and nite.. as he was broke frm spending his money at kl, he didnt bring any money to s'pore and i paid for all the expenses willingly.. as i was still hoping for a chance.. whn we went batam, he did mre shopping for himself with shirt, tees and vest and titbits for his college mates thn i did.. nw to think of it, yy did he shop so agressively with my money since he wanted a breakup. whn we went out, he always fold his arms or put his hands in pockets so as not to hold my hands. i was v upset, thou i inititated, he wld lemme hold awhile as he noe i wld emo if he didnt and he wld let go aft awhile v quickly.. i washed my face with tears everyday. there was like no mre trust btw us. desperately, i secretly save his msn chat on my lappy and discovered a shocking chat msg he had with mayyi. i was like a clown in his chat and they were like flirting with each other. i was devestated once again. so i qns him abt it, and he said they had nth goin on' and he always talk like this to everybdy.. thn he didnt wanna talk to me abt it,and keep saying all he wanted was to go hm nw.. i was rlly rlly depressed. thn eventually, he chnged all his msn and fb pw.. and didnt wan me to noe.. thn he chng bk to old pw, saying he wld chng bk whn he goes bk to kl.. but the next day he chnged bk alr )); thn on the day he was goin bk, i cldnt resist to tell my aunt that he mayb wun b coming bk anymre and she guessed we breaking up. thn he was pissed at me once again as he didnt wan my family to treat him like a murderer. i told him my family treated him like part of family alr, but he said we werent married and it doesnt involve them.. thn he was persistent it was enuff said. thn we finally agreed on having this week for him to think it thru. we will still msn and hav phone calls like we used to and we'll let each other noe if we were goin out.. but my aunt still treated him normally and even sent him off.. the nite he arrive in kl, he went out to pub to celebrate his fren's bday party alr. but he kept his promise and chatted with me, thn as days pass. words gt lesser, no mre telling if he were goin out, and eventually, he decided he dun wan to talk to me at all. and thats it he said. and this whole week, i didnt even mention abt our r/s.. only wanted casual talk.. thn i had no choice but to give him up and chnged my r/s status in fb.. thn mayyi's ex came to talk to me, thn i mention to him abt the chat i saw. thn he told me whn mayyi broke up with him in dec, she told him an almost similar excuse as sh did to me and he himself also saw them webcam-ing b4.. and i didnt noe he wld go and confront mayyi and scold her f words. thn mus b she go complain sh again, as he called my hse ard mid9 to scold me nt to anyhw say stuff.. my gramps who hav heart probs was awaken by his call and gt a shock by his actions, and i was also mad at him for making my gramps worry. he didnt wanna talk to me, but bcoz of mayyi, he called and scold me. thn he scolded me twice the f word in his fb status, and dlted me, my brother and my frens off his fb and msn. i was utterly heartbroken. my little cousins who idolised him, also changed.. one bcame v quiet, and the other keep pestering my aunt asking whn is sh coming bk... his mum has also cried over us on several occasions.. i cant understand yy has he choosen to hurt ppl who loved him.. and i rlly felt, no feelings wasnt an excuse..
i miss him like hell. i nvr stopped loving him a second. i hav no idea wad went wrg, so did he. but he has chnged so much, its scary. the kind side whom i love abt him is gone.. his cruelty towards me has hurt me soo deeply. i can no longer eat well, slpp well. and i keep have heartaches that feels like heart attacks and nauseous feelings. my fren says its depression im goin thru. i noe everybdy's asking me to get out of it. i rlly rlly appreciate the advices and encouragement.. but its so tough, i used to share with him every little thing in the world, nw that im all alone.. he has even untag photos off.. and kept aside all the stuff i gave him to put in his car in the car boot.. even ornament he paid for it but i acc him buy is being kept away.. i wondered if he will use all the stuff that i bought for him last time.. and all the clothes he bought using my money.. nw that he has moved on, planning outings with his frens rlly saddens me.. it seems i was nvr part of his life.. sometimes, i cldnt help crying in public places... i feel so depressing..i rlly nvr wanted to become strangers bk with him, nw that we end up this way.. i regretted writing my fb status the very nite, as i felt i shldnt have hurt someone whom i love so much.. and thus i dlted the status.. i cant bring myself to dlt our photos in fb, as i didnt had a backup copy.. as i looked at the old memories, hw loving and blissful we were.. i rlly missed it.. i hav cherished our r/s.. and will nvr regret being with him.. thou this was the 2nd time he asked for a breakup.. the 1st time was one yr aft we got tgt, he fell in love with another girl at same time.. but dat time he loved me mre so i cld salvage our r/s.. i jus wanna sleep well for nw.. im v v tired.. hopefully, he'll get a slim and pretty girl like he has always wanted.. i still wanna say, i love you very much. and this will be buried deep in my heart..
©herish ♥
Monday, May 24, 2010 @5:18 PM
Lets cont' from whr i last stopped ((: last last wed, as planned. we went to Low Yat Point with darley's clique for lunch @ a HongKong restaurant which is more of a cafeteria, we ordered a hell lot of food until we were damm bloated. HEEs =X i ordered pork horfun, while he ordered nissan noodles with hotdog and egg (which we both know its only maggie mee), followed by shared french toast and a sea coconut sago dessert. i ordered a cold soya bean as i wanted to see if there was any difference hehes =X but the toast was yummmy. it was filled with delicious melted peanut butter so we both ate like we havent ate for years xDD one of his friend, jay, had a mild food poisoning after steamboat on tues nite, while me and other friend, hk, had slight diarrhea last tues nite when we went home. i guess, the food's aint that hygienic uh. but i still had very much an appetite to eat ;bbb afterwhich, we went to one of the most popular k in K.L, known as RedBox at one isolated corner in the basement of the mall. Student price was only 8RM++! like OMG? soooooo cheap! but i nvr bring my old student card to msia so was asked to pay the normal rate of 22RM++ which is ARGH :/ we sang for more thn 5hrs, which is quite worthy the money ^_^ from 4pm+ to 9pm+ until the staff came to ask for payment and eventually stopped the dedicating of songs. below is a picture of the room i took from the website as i accidentally dlted the photos i took originally T_T
quite comfy and nicely decorated, the lcd screen was built-in.
after the k session, we went to kepong, a place called 快乐sth xDD which is like a hawker centre for dinner. they have rlly yummy crispy chicken cutlet rice, HEEs ^_^ then it was home sweet home as we drove ym and kean back home 1st.
thurs late aftnn, me and darley went to catch "Furry Vengence" with jay and his gf, st @ the new Wangsa Walk Mall. we 1st grabbed a bite at Georgetown Coffee place, as the couple were alr there taking their lunch. i personally felt that it serves better food thn Old Town does ((;
i forgotten whats the mee call but i rmb the name just sounded like sth new to me. and the drink, soya bean with cincao, and gula melaka (also known as, brown sugar) ((;
the show's not too bad, its jus average. just the cute furry little creatures stole the limelight in the show. after the show, the couple went off, leaving me and darley, so i dragged him to eat A&W's with me as planned. i jus miss the waffle with ice cream, curly fries, onion rings and root beer float! sooo additive ((; he bought a little white chick solar ornament for his car, 10RM only! cheapppppp and cute. and i named it, 白斩鸡. rofl!
darley also bought me a pair of pretty blue covered shoes, at the price of 19.95RM! the u.p was 39.90RM, damm worth buying! hehes =X as i wanted him to get me a pair of fake roxy thick slippers, but it costed 29.90RM and the sole seems to wear off easily. i told him, i'd rather get a pair of nicer footwear and tadah! my 1st footwear from him, hehes ^_^ then, we went to pick up his sis to fetch her home and was picking his mum up to the thurs-operated pasar malam near his hse. who wld have guessed, his neighbour, an auntie tagged along with her little daughter. me and darley looked at each other helplessly as the neighbour was a very loud person who talks like shes yelling and is a very greedy and inconsiderate person. upon reaching the place, his mum and neighbour was nagging him on hw to park the car until he gt alittle bad tempered but chilled after i calmed him down ;bb we walked ard and bought some traditional foodstuff for my dad and gramps. one of the fruit stalls was selling 40 oranges for 10RM, OMG. dirt cheapp! but i was wondering whyy wld anyone buy so many oranges, not as if it was chinese new year =X we saw the fake roxy slippers selling at cheaper rates than the mall did, luckily we didnt buy them =X but if i were to go to KL the next time, i'll probably get it as i wld have money myself by thn.
we stayed home on friday catching HK dramas, and washed the car (cldnt rmb exactly which day was it, probably tues). i love to wash his car with him, feel soooo like a couple living tgt. as the saying goes to most guys, a car is a guy's 2nd wife and so, i will take care of it like my own ((; then at nite, we drove to the nearby Carrefour hypermart to get my water bottle and tropicana orange juice (the only orange juice i'll drink ever since he intro-ed and so, whenever i come to msia, i wld always get a bottle), whereas he bought some sports wear and towel for his badminton session on sat with his bible study friend. i also love the feeling of shopping in a supermart with him, it feels soooo "warm" *shys*. then went to packet "black hokkien mee" from one of the roadside stall near his hse for supper. not too bad but can be improved better ;bb
then came sat, cont catching dramas and other shows, until he went for bible study and badminton. his lil sis took me and his mum to take a bus ride to Genting Klang for desserts. while waiting for the bus at the bus-stop, i'd got bitten by poisonous mosquitoes which made my arm and leg swell alittle and itched. then reaching there, realised the dessert stall nvr operated on that day which was kinda disappointing. stood ard like retards waiting for darley to fetch us aft his game. was so irritated by the wait, as his sis refused to phone him and it was freaking hot and we were getting weird glares from passer-bys. whn he finally came, we ate at a new eatery nearby. the food's so-so, but it was damm packed as it was new. human's nature i guessed ((: went home to slack ard thn called his clique out for a bite of satays and bbq-ed wings @ KK, Rampai Business Park. chit-chat awhile thn it was time to go back. we sent ym and kean bk thn he drove me ard as promised as i didnt wanna go hm so early. it was sooo nice having a two-person world, chatting like nobdy's world. the sad thing is, we have to come bk to reality.
sun morns, darley woke up early so we went with his lil sis to mcd's for breakfast before he drove me to stadium bukit jalil to wait for my coach bk s'pore. we reached the place an hr earlier so we took a walk ard the place, watching ppl fish by the big drainage. they've got rlly big fishes which caught me by surprised. thn waited to board the bus, and realised a lady had the same seat number as me but she was goin to JB, so darley came up the bus to settle for me with the coach driver who changed her seat to behind the coach so she was upset. thn i left my darley reluctantly, as the coach drove and the sight of him slowly vanished. i miss you, darley! given a choice, i wished we will nvr be apart coz separation does sadden us a hell lot. i rlly appreciate you putting in efforts and yr pocket money in ensuring i had a good time. Loves you dearly!
©herish ♥
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 @1:33 AM
this whole day, me and darley just spent the aftnn chasing our HK dramas. until evening time then we got dressed and went to meet his clique for a korean steamboat buffet located in Ampang, K.L. as usual, his clique is full of craps and nonsense, but i rlly envy my darley for having such "on" friends who are readily for you. the place was kinda of open-air and w/o any fans, so it was kinda hot that me and darley kept perspiring. the so-call korean steamboat is just using a stone pan instead of normal bbq pans covered in aluminium foil and there's also shabu shabu. overall, nth rlly tasty as i feel S'pore has better steamboats. but for a price of RM28, its not too bad as there was also a young coconut drink, and 2 live prawn each person. the prawn's quite bigg though ((; i believe if Msia's steamboats add more variety of food choices, it wld definitely be much better. whn im in msia, i prefer to eat local stalls whereby can find some unique food, or very tasty food~! i guess, each country has their own unique food cultures, and the preferences of food, depends vary on the person eating.tml, originally gonna catch an aftnn movie, "Furry Vengeance" then eat A&W at the newly-opened mall, Wangsa Walk located near darley's residence and then, shop in Msia's longest pasar malam in K.L @ Cheras in the nite. but just nw, his friends proposed a cheap K-session of RM10 whereby you get 4hrs of singing so we made a little change to our initial plans. meeting his clique which may only be the other couple or if his other friends dun mind joining for lunch @ 12pm, thn head over to K, afterwhich. me and darley will catch the movie (not sure if the rest is tagging along) and, go to the pasar malam as promised by my darley ;bbb darley also invited me to his badminton session with his bible study tutor @ saturday evening. hopefully, everything turns out well. sooo looking forward to whole day outing HEHEs :X and prays hard that time will pass even slower as i left 4 days to be with my darley >.< Loves you, darley <3
©herish ♥
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 @12:16 AM
woohoo! forgotten to mark the last day of my temp job. wrapped up quite nicely, made the most sales on last last sunday, 2 may 2010. boss says will give us a meal treat when i come bk frm KL. gotten my pay too! made basic pay, $50 commission, and $30 bonus from Boss. quite little i guess, coz i swiped $100 on my baking stuff alr :/ now im @ KL currently! weeeeeee ;DDD everybdy's asking when i'll be bkkkk. and let me say again, its this sunday, 16 may 2010! i'll be here for a weeek. time seems to pass so fast over here. like a blink of eye, its alr coming to an end of monday. will only be here for 5 more days. will miss my darley soooooo muchies! today, we woke up early and went to catch a noon movie, "Losers", shopped ard KLCC for my cosmetics. the movie's quite cooool! wld recommend you guys to watch it :D and went to 'Full House' for set lunches as promised by him! <3 i've seen the place when we went to fetch one of our friend and thought it was beautiful and indeed it had a dreamy feel when we sat in! the food's so-so i would say, and its non-air conditioned as if the aircons' were there for show and fans were used instead. was kinda disappointed as they ran out of tarts which was desserts as included in the set lunches, which i also find weird as there werent alot of people on such a working monday aftnn. each set lunch costs about 17RM, excluding gst and taxes. damm cheap huhs ((;
The menu comes with comic strips! & other mechandise sold in da shopppp!
Us at the back garden, taking a photo with the fountain and their signature car!
view my FB, for more photos! HEHE ;bbb
©herish ♥
Sunday, May 2, 2010 @1:27 AM
yes, the adults always blame us for anything that goes wrong. and never, compliments for good job done cause they expected it from us. they are so petty and stingy at times that our generation vow nvr to become part of their kind.
tdy, my sales i guess is considered one of da best among these 7days that i've worked. although it wasnt alot, maybs slightly above $150, but i did my best! had better luck in this morns which i thnk god so much! in fact, the job aint too bad afterall. except dat bossy horse of coz, which treats me as her slave or so. who is she to order me ard? damm attitude and damm horse-fart. reason for calling her a horse, she is abit of BA-GAY( which is her front top row of tooth alittle stuck out) although she is vain-pot with dimples who thinks she is v pretty and capable. and she is a bootlicker. damm good an actress, nvr go mediacorp damm wasted huhs. keep slacking or act busy, or snatch commissions and order me and the other JC sotong girl ard. i sooo willing to bet, her so-called other frens are also of her kind. tdy time passed quite quickly, maybs of the crowd since morns. but boss complained that sales tdy wasnt as gd. sorethroat's sooo bad that its getting itchier with cough emerging, and i lost my voice. flu's coming rite up too. arghhh, why do i keep falling sick esp with these 3! feeling so awful, just hoping for some care and concern and warmth. tml's da last day of the roadshow, hopefully we can wrap up a good ending. and hopefully, i can recover w/o goin' to the docs! no $_$ arrrrrrrrr.
©herish ♥
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